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17 April 2010 @ 01:00 am
[Fic] Forbidden Love - Ch3  

Title: Forbidden love

Pairing: Akame

Rating: NC-17

Genre: Angst, Romance

Summary: They are the perfect family who has perfect houses and perfects sons. However, their world crumbles when they discover that their sons are having more than brotherly love between them. A struggle of two souls will start, but is a forbidden love will ever be meant to be? 

Disclaimer: I only own the fictional characters I made for this story and the plot, but I don’t own any characters from Johnny’s Entertainment. However, I wish I own Kazu.

A/N: This contains incest, so you’re warned. Also, I don’t promise you a happy ending especially that this fic has a very sad moment, so if you’re the type who hates angst, heavy angst, then this fic isn’t for you.


Chapter 3: False Rejection

 

It was another Sunday where Kazuya spent his entire day on his bed as usual. He always wondered why wouldn’t he just go out if he hates staying with his parents that much. However, he would always spend his day on his room doing nothing but thinking and remembering. Today wasn’t any different; he was laying on his bed since he opened his eyes. He kept changing his positions to gaze around his room, but his mind was somewhere else, traveling far away in hope to reach a certain someone. He heard a knock on the door, but he didn’t say anything.

Naomi: Ah, you’re awake! Lunch is ready!

But she waited for almost a minute, not even a glance was returned to her. It’s like she never even entered his room and she bites her lips, s fetish she passed to him when they both are nervous. She left knowing that he wouldn’t come downstairs and wouldn’t eat with them. After all, everything was ruined between them. Who would have thought that their perfect family would become like this? Who would’ve thought that her relation with her son will be ruined beyond any repair?

Kazuya wasn’t affected at all, not anymore. Maybe at first, he felt sorry for his parents and his uncle and aunt, but after a while, he lost all his sympathy toward them. His hate toward his parents was formed because of his sufferings among other things. It killed him how they acted like nothing happened now when he was still suffering and will be suffering until he sees Jin again. He can’t forgive them especially after he tried so hard to talk to him when they discovered their relation, he tried to let them understand his feelings, but they wouldn’t listen. He begged them so much, but they never heard them and that killed something in him.

He can never forget his adventure when he tried to run away. They found him immediately and it made things worse, his parents took him away, far away this time, another country where it was impossible for him to reach Jin again.

 They were very cruel to the point that they took all the family albums that he doesn’t know what fate they received. He remembered seeing how they went through all his stuff and took everything that had Jin’s writings on it. All his notes, gifts, stuff, pictures they had together. He gulped remembering his mobile phone and the fate it had suffered from. If he still had his phone, he would at least be able to see Jin’s pictures. It’s been so long since he had seen him.

Kazuya: I wonder how you look like now. Did you lose weight? Did you get taller? *sighs* Shit! Didn’t you graduate high school already? Where are you Jin? What are you doing? I’m going crazy here!  

Kazuya pulled out his necklace and gazed at it lovingly and kissed it gently. The necklace was for a ring that had a small carving inside that says “Love You Forever” ---- Jin

Kazuya: You’re the only thing that’s left from him! There’s no way I’m going to let anyone take you away from me! You’re the only thing that’s keeping my sanity go longer.

For a while, Kazuya was having problems mentally. He couldn’t handle been snatched away from his home and lover against his will which affected on him badly. After they moved to their new house in US, he was so closed to himself and stopped talking to everyone. He wasn’t in better shape in school either which made some people try to bully him. But an incident happened when one of those bullies tried to snatch the necklace and that made him snap that Kazuya punched him on the face real hard.

That incident was like his wake up call and he finally woke up from his sleeping state. Kazuya still believes in Jin’s words and he knows that their love will last forever. It’s just that, he’s getting tired and impatient from waiting. He was telling himself to wait until Jin graduate, but it seems like something happened to Jin, maybe his parents are doing the same as my parents. Kazuya shakes his head, more determined, it doesn’t matter. If Jin can’t come to him, he will go to him once he graduates. He just has to put up with this life till he gets 18 and that’s it. Soon, Kazuya felt his eyelids growing heavy and sleep overcome him.

 

Memories

 

Love was nothing like what he imagined it to be. It wasn’t easy at all and it didn’t start by day or night. It happened after years and years from living together and knowing the smallest tiniest detail about each him when not even their parents did. Jin, being the older with 2 years struggled the most with his feelings fighting against it so badly. He knew what he felt was completely wrong. He wanted his cousin, he wanted Kazuya and he wanted him so badly every day and the urge was growing strong everyday especially when Kazuya was glowing brightly each day. He knew that if he ever told Kazuya, he won’t be rejected out of sympathy or admiration and that thought alone killed him. He knew how Kazuya saw him, how Kazuya admired him and considered him as his big brother. He didn’t want to ruin that for the younger boy, but how can he drift away then? How can he do so when his parents are practically living together, all the time crashing each other houses? He had no idea. He didn’t know how he can stop these feelings, but for now he knew that the start would be from stopping those sleeping over nights he had with Kazuya. He can’t allow him to sleep with him anymore or he might jump him any time, the last time was already, hellish for him to endure and he couldn’t sleep and he spent most of the time either on the bathroom jerking off with the younger boy sleeping face on his mind or in the room just looking at him from afar, gazing while thinking seriously about the irony of this.

What if they if they weren’t both guys? What If they weren’t cousins? What if their parents never met?  So many things crossed his minds, but he answered each one of them. He loved Kazuya the way he is, as a guy and as his cousin.

 

Jin thought of a solution to the problem. While separating himself from Kazuya, he should try going out with girls or even guys if he’s gay and here’s where the problem started. Jin started sleeping around with girls, but it never worked. He always thought he was interested in the girl’s body especially their breasts; however, shots of Kazuya will show up in his mind that makes him want to just cry. Cry his heart out because this is not working and he can’t even have sex for the sake of sex. He got so frustrated till the point where he thought of trying it with guys, maybe that will work. So he sneaked into a gay bar and watched the show that was going on the stage…..nothing……no effect…….he danced on the dance floor like crazy, drank when a stranger offered him a drink and even agreed on going with him to a hotel, but he couldn’t bottom and couldn’t top either…..he couldn’t do anything and he felt useless and apologized to the angry man and left the hotel room knowing the reason why…….because whenever he was going to do anything…..he felt wrong…..he felt like he’s going to betray him…..he felt like he’s going to betray Kazuya……but why…..why when even Kazuya doesn’t know……… 

 

Kame never realized he was in love with his cousin in that way until he missed him. He missed the older boy so much and no matter how many times he invited him over, Jin would reject or when he went over, Jin would ask him not to stay. It was horrible and Kazuya wasn’t used to it. He wasn’t used to this cold shoulder and wasn’t used to the absence of Jin in his life because even his calls and visits stopped with time.

What killed him the most is hearing the stories about him sleeping around with girls…..that entirely killed him deeply…..but that’s normal…..he kept reminding himself……it’s normal for a guy to gain experience and have fun as much as he can, right?.......but…….Kazuya didn’t want him to……he didn’t want him to have any fun without him……Huh??? *Kazuya touched his cheeks and noticed his tears falling* Why Jin?.....Why???......He always demanded things from him…..he always asked him not to hang out with certain people or guys……and Kazuya allowed him to…….he thought……he thought…….didn’t it mean something??......He got Kazuya’s first times…….First word…….his name……First kiss…..he took it when I was in kindergarten……….First masturbate……he taught me by his hands and touched my……….and it was only during my elementary school….I don’t understand….He act jealous when someone surrounds me, but how am I supposed to act now?

Kazuya was feeling jealousy eating his heart, soul and mind piece by piece over and over again.

 

Kame didn’t have many friends and Jin was his best friend, so when he decided that he had enough; he asked Jin to meet him in their secret place near the lake. They got to know that secret place since childhood when Kazuya got bullied, but Jin defended him hurting the one who bullied Kazuya which made him freak out so he took Kazuya and ran away. They found the secret place at that time and decided or actually Jin decided to run away from home since he hurt someone and stayed there and Kazuya of course stayed with him.

 So, here is Kazuya again in the same place smiling while remembering how foolish they were and how cute Jin was.

Jin: Kazu

Kazuya: *turns around* I’m glad you didn’t ditch me!

Jin: I can never ditch you and you know that! *smiles* how are you?

Kazuya: *stares sharply at Jin* do you really care?

Jin: Of course I do Kazu!

Kazuya: *says bitterly* Yeah I can see that! Especially when you return my calls!! *accusing eyes*

Jin: *dropped his eyes on the ground while gulping* sorry!

Kazuya: Mom and aunty both started asking questions! I don’t know what to answer them since I have no idea what’s going on myself! What happened Jin?

Jin: Nothing

Kazuya: Really? *angry* and sleeping with different girl everyday is nothing??

Jin: *shot his eyes open* h-how?

Kazuya: It’s only a matter of time till it reaches our parents!!

Jin: *bites his lips and averts his eyes*

Kazuya: Jin *Jin looks at Kazuya* do you love someone?

Jin: *gets speechless from the question*

Kazuya: *tears start falling* I knew it! After all! I know you! You’re not the type to just sleep around like that!

Jin: *tears stared falling after seeing Kazuya’s tears*Kazu

Kazuya: You can talk to me you know! I will help you! Just don’t drift away like this!

Jin: *approaches Kazuya and places his hands on the younger cheeks* please don’t cry!

Kazuya: *places his hand over Jin’s* please stop pushing me away!

Jin: *gulps* it’s for your own good, believe me!

Kazuya: *stares at Jin confused* huh? What do you mean?

Jin: *averts his eyes and turns away* nothing, let’s go! I feel like eating ramen!

Kazuya: Jin! What do you mean? “Maybe I’m not alone in this!”

Jin: Kazu! *without turning back* thank you! I’ll take you on your offer! *smiles bitterly without the other seeing him and started walking away*

Kazuya: *freaked out seeing Jin’s back*Jin! What am I to you?

Jin: *Jin froze from the question* “If I said you’re my love, my life and everything, what would you do Kazu? What would you do?” *without turning back and hardly while biting on his lips, Jin answered* you’re my cousin Kazu, you’re my little bro!

Kazuya: *felt a stab in his heart and a tear fell, his face was filled with a pained expression* “is that all I am to you Jin? Then, how can I ever say that I feel something different toward you? Am I weird for feeling like this? I know that what I’m feeling is wrong, but I……I love you……I wish if you at least told me that we’re best friends…..you don’t have to remind me that we’re cousins!”

Jin felt a sharp pain in his chest from what he said, but he knows that he has to remind himself that they are cousins and he shouldn’t be feeling this way toward his cousin. But, something was telling him to turn around; however, before he did Kazuya smacked him on the shoulder and walked before him.

Kazuya: *never turning back once* let’s go eat ramen!! You’re paying for being a total mean guy all this time!!

Jin: *smiled bitterly* ok! “I guess, I’m stupid for thinking I mean something more to you too Kazu”

They kept talking and chatting happily in dinner like nothing ever was wrong, but once they left to their homes, Kazuya kept crying his heart out while Jin kept reverse everything that happened. Jin kept imagining all type of different scenarios, him confessing and getting rejected, him confessing and getting a kiss a very hot kiss and that lead to many other things which he ended up getting so upset for wasting his time on the past and decided on sleeping instead. But then, he started thinking again and imagining a different answer to Kazuya’s question, what if he said that Kazuya meant a lover to him? What if he said that Kazuya meant his life? What will happen then? At the end Jin thought it wouldn’t matter anyway because at the end, Kazuya won’t know any of it. He will never know any of his feelings. Jin never slept that night.

On the other hand, Kazuya kept crying for his broken heart thinking that Jin is in love with someone although it seems it’s not working for him, but still Jin love is so strong. Kazuya felt crushed like someone just stepped on his heart and he wasn’t satisfied with Jin’s answer at all. He never wanted to be his cousin and there is no way in hell he’s agreeing to be his little brother. He hates the idea that Jin thought like that! If at least he said that he was his best friend, then maybe he would have been little happier. But NO! He had to say those hurtful things to him although he can’t blame him, after all, Jin doesn’t even know that Kazuya feel s this way toward him and he will never know. Kazuya slept very late that night with dry tears on his face and a bad headache.

But, little did they know that sometimes life operates in a direction itself that makes all your resolution go to nothing.
 

Chapter 4: The Confession

 

 
 
 
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Garnetgarnet_light on April 17th, 2010 05:33 am (UTC)
You're FIRST! *gives u a hug and cupcake*

Yeah, they couldn't tell each other at all...
This is to show that they suffered a lot in the past ne~~

Hehehehehehehe
Awwww, this whole fic is very heartbreaking for me >.<
But, I'm glad you enjoyed it! ^^

Thanks a lot for reading and commenting!

*hugs u back*
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(no subject) - garnet_light on April 17th, 2010 04:11 pm (UTC) (Expand)
jamie_spottyjamie_spotty on April 16th, 2010 11:20 pm (UTC)
Yay you updated!!!!

I so love this fic. Now the past is revealed somewhat. It cleared up a lot. I wonder though how will Kazu and Jin see each other? and what will happen? I'm so excited!

**Hugs you!**
Garnetgarnet_light on April 17th, 2010 05:35 am (UTC)
I'm so happy you love it!! *hugs*
There will be more revealing about the past
To tell you more about their story ne~~

Thanks a lot for reading and commenting sweetie ^^

*hugs u tight*
Puriiii~ueda_fangirl on April 17th, 2010 03:43 am (UTC)
damn ill read later =P

need to finish my projects first ;-;
Garnetgarnet_light on April 17th, 2010 05:30 am (UTC)
Hehehehehe
Will be waiting for your comment! ^^
Good luck in your project!
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Garnetgarnet_light on April 17th, 2010 08:42 am (UTC)
Yes, I finally updated! Sorry for being late >.<

Yes, baka both of them ne~~
Well, you will find that in the coming chapters, but not soon~~
hehehehehe~~
Thanks a lot for reading and commenting! ^^
dontstopmoredontstopmore on April 17th, 2010 08:08 am (UTC)
aww poor kame =( i hope they get to meet eachother soon!!!
Garnetgarnet_light on April 17th, 2010 08:44 am (UTC)
I hope so too ne~~
But first, the next chapters will be more about their past~~
Thanks a lot for reading and commenting! ^^
deeacrazymedeeacrazyme on April 17th, 2010 08:22 am (UTC)
this is stupid...why can't people be honest with their feelings??
baka Kame and Jin!!
i hate it when they do things like this and i get the feeling they do it often...even in real life.
hope things turn out the best for them...as long as it lasts.
thanks!
Garnetgarnet_light on April 17th, 2010 08:49 am (UTC)
Yes, sometimes people are too stubborn and they are far from being honest with their feelings ne~~

I think they are like that even in real life >.<

I hope so too! The next chapters will be more about their past! ^^

Thanks a lot for reading and commenting! *hugs*
Tikkymailinh6589 on April 17th, 2010 08:52 am (UTC)
baka couple x(((
Garnetgarnet_light on April 17th, 2010 09:22 am (UTC)
Indeed they are >.<
Thanks a lot for reading and commenting!! ^^
アグスティンagustin1982 on April 17th, 2010 09:03 am (UTC)
So heartbreaking><

This so angst???

I want crycry now><

Give you kiss~~~~~~
Garnetgarnet_light on April 17th, 2010 09:26 am (UTC)
It is ne >.<
Awww, don't cry dear!
*chuuuuuuuuuuuu*
Thanks a lot for reading and commenting sweetie~~ ^^
sekkiboosekkiboo on April 17th, 2010 09:47 am (UTC)
what's with that conversation ?
damn it! if jin says what does he really feel T.T
hope they can still see each other again >.<
and please let their parents understand them T.T

^^
Garnetgarnet_light on April 17th, 2010 03:58 pm (UTC)
Indeed!
I hope he did ne~~
It's not really easy to make their parents understand when things are very complicated

Thanks a lot for reading and commenting!
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ClarieWinchesterakameangel on April 17th, 2010 10:31 am (UTC)
...The parents are so cruel ... Why they took everything away from them? All gifts, photos ...etc
I can't wait to see what will happen when kazuya graduate.

It will really feel bad that they cannot confess to the one they luv. Poor Akame.
Thanks for sharing. Luv as always. Chu~~~

Garnetgarnet_light on April 17th, 2010 04:01 pm (UTC)
Yes they are >.<
They are trying to separate them by all means
but you'll understand why soon ne~~

Indeed, it will!
Thanks a lot for reading and commenting! *hugs tight*

Chuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~
annabella1988annabella1988 on April 17th, 2010 11:50 am (UTC)
u update! i like it dear...
its so heartbreaking~ so sad~ sob* sob...
poor them ne.. why did not say their true feeling?
thanks for this update dear...
chuuuuuu~

cant wait for next chapter.. ^_^
Garnetgarnet_light on April 17th, 2010 04:04 pm (UTC)
Yes, I finally did! Sorry that it was a late update ne~~
*pats your head* don't cry hon~~
Yeah, they misunderstood and although they always had doubt the other might feel the same, it was crushed that day I guess..

Thanks a lot for reading and commenting!! *hugs*
Chuuuuuuuuuuuu~~
you can always paint the roses redqueen_kat_tun on April 17th, 2010 11:53 am (UTC)
I am really, really sorry for lagging behind and missing your works! When I saw that this was a new fic coming from you I seriously wanted to read it asap! But...but..you said that this won't have a happy ending...*sighs*

Oh well...Life is harsh sometimes...

The angst was well written too!

Thanks so much for this XD
Garnetgarnet_light on April 17th, 2010 04:06 pm (UTC)
No worries sweetie, this new fic is sad indeed.
It might not have a happy ending, I didn't finish it yet, but my assumptions that the ending might not please that many >.<

Life is sure harsh ne~~
I'm glad you think so ^^
It means a lot coming from you *hugs*
Thanks a lot for reading and commenting dear!

Chuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~
ღ~♥ Yuki ♥~ღkame_kiyumi on April 17th, 2010 12:52 pm (UTC)
hmm.... I just wish Kame can go to Jin soon.....
Garnetgarnet_light on April 17th, 2010 04:07 pm (UTC)
I hope so too ne~~
But it's not that easy since Kame is still a minor and can't go alone without his parents permission.

Thanks a lot for reading and commenting!
lost_sky6lost_sky6 on April 17th, 2010 11:56 pm (UTC)
Why did they have to take everything away from Kame? So sad >.< They already took him away from Jin...
I hope Kame will be able to meet Jin soon somehow..
Love this fic a lot ^__^ Hope you update soon!!
Garnetgarnet_light on April 18th, 2010 08:22 am (UTC)
Yeah, I feel the same way too ne~~
Let's hope they will meet somehow
I'm so happy that you love this fic!!
I will update this soon ^^

Thanks a lot for reading and commenting dear! *hugs*
mae0513mae0513 on April 18th, 2010 02:30 pm (UTC)
love it!
thank u~
Garnetgarnet_light on April 19th, 2010 12:06 pm (UTC)
I'm happy you do ^^
Thanks a lot for reading and commenting!